Love..?

Honestly,
i don't hope to open new page,
because when i'm did that,
that mean i'm miss you..

I'm was on relationship,
thay what i'm guess so,
but did i?
I'm love her much or you?
When i'm kiss her,
i thinking of you,
when i'm hold her hand,
i thinking of you,
when i'm hug her,
i'm still miss you..

I'm know that i'm asshole because i'm take her as you, i'm feel bad, how you will do, if you is me..?

Page 24,
Afternoon 16:18,
By Yht..

Sometimes..

Some happen killed me today,
today i'm felt same like those time,
what i'm telling you about i'm fall to you..
Sometimes,
something is under our expect,
and we only can accept it,
even if i'm know this very clear,
but need to do it sucessfull,
it's really abit hard..
Just now i'm really hope,
i dare to call you and tell you that,
"Hey, i'm feel very bad, would you really could talk with me, no any subject, any motive, just talk crap like what we always did"
But you know i'm din't do that,
because is i'm not ready to put down everything between us..
It's late,
i'm guess if some day you were reading,
maybe will laughing i'm still never change..
Good night and sweet dream dumb2,
can i still miss you?
Even if we become like this =')

Page 23,
Night 23:55,
By Yht..

Replace? or Repeat?

This is very funny,
i'm dream you last night,
and i'm think i din't miss you yesterday,
but you still apear to my dream..
I don't know why it's still happen to me,
i'm tried don't think always,
i also did really put it down,
but it hard and i'm keep fail..

Anyway, something is happen to me.. I'm went out with a lady, she is awesome, when i'm out there with her, i'm can temporary forgot about you, but after home i'm will still miss you and will dream you some night..

I'm wonder that i take her as you, and i'm also worry about what if this is another happen like what happen between us? I'm keep tell my self, no need to worry so much, if the fate is set with this funny story, no matter what i'm did, the story is still same, right?

All right, i think should think less, and sleep well, hope i'm could do that.. Good night and sweet dream dumb2.. What i'm wanna to say is, when i'm wrote something at here, that mean i'm actually is miss you, just i'm don't wan't and don't dare to admit it.. Sigh, fool forever is fool..

Page 22,
Midnight 03:27,
By Yht..

Is that you?

Sometimes,
somewhere,
someone maybe will miss you,
but that you're never know..
I'm feel down,
not because of miss you,
i'm feel bad,
not because of fall to you,
all my feel is because i'm still though find someone replace you is right,
as normal,
this is very very wrong move,
because you is you,
there is no one can bring the same feel what you give me..

Sigh, dummy, do you really found this secret dairy? And here is not so hard to find, right? I'm feel lonely, hust because every single night i'm will miss you and sometimes you will run into my dream too.. I'm so sorry, for keep hurting both of us..

Sigh, can't sleep at all, even if my eye is very tired, but mind is still working, terrible feel.. Okay lah, same as usual, i'm still miss you..

Good night and sweet dream..

Page 21,
Midnight 01:07,
By Yht..

Stupid..

This world is weird,
few days ago i'm still feel sad of humanility,
but now i'm feel that is human nature..
I'm should not blame,
that because everyone have their own life,
hope to change people life is very hard..

This world don't have prefect,
maybe a mistake is good to let people grow,
maybe not,
what important is know that is a challage,
if can handle it mean you're grow..
That is what i'm learn from,
so,
how do you do?
Sorry yea,
your sei lord still got miss you sometimes,
but i'm know even if i'm miss you very much,
that is just my feel..

Okay la,
it's late liao,
sleep well yea..
Good nited and sweet dream =)
Drink much water and take care..

Page 20,
Midnight 01:39,
By Yht..

Low chance..

Good morning~
I'm gess you will never believe it,
i'm just woke up by dream,
you know what dream will woke me up,
i'm feel uncomfortable,
and i'm looking on my phone..
You will never believe it..

Do you know skout? An apps that can made friend, but nevermind if you don't.. I'm got play that, and i'm woke up by dream, i will check my phone normally, what go into my eye is "skout: Sarah sent you a message".. What the hell, i'm know that is not you of course, but look like the GOD still haven enjoyable to playing me yet.. What a bad time i saw your by a crazy low chance..

It's funny,
can't sleep back again,
how your monday?
Monday blue,
let cheer up!
Good morning dumb2,
wish you have a happy day,
take care and drink much water,
i'm sorry i'm still miss you =')

Page 19,
Morning 07:27,
By Yht..

I'm guess..

Sigh,
dumb2,
if people said bad luck in love,
will lucky in gambling..
Your sei lord got a terrible weekend,
i'm lost many money and,
i'm feel crazy miss you =)"

Actually today i'm wan tell you is,
i'm feel tired to read people mind,
when some happen be clear,
the truth is cruel and scary,
i'm din't expect a people can turn face like this,
i'm feel this world is build on profit,
if you don't have something people need,
no one will be nice to you..
I'm wonder,
did the world got pure heart?
Did the world still left people like you?
Did this world de people all eye have profit only?
Sigh,
unacceptable,
maybe i'm really still too protected,
i'm should know to accept this fact,
people is no longer be friend without any motive..

Time to sleep again,
Good Night and sweet dream,
can i miss you like all the time?
Even you don't allow,
i will do it too,
you know,
right? =)
I'm sorry..
Good Night sleep tight..

Page 18,
Midnight 02:06,
By Yht..

Your lord is a bloody fool..?

Your lord,
me,
is a fool?
Did i'm really saw too less of world?
Can you explain to me,
what is mlm system?
What is network marketing?
And do you feel i'm right?
If i'm face this situation..
Okay what i'm faced is,

i'm been intro to visit a company, they telling what they did is hope me change my life, how to change it? My target, what i'm really want, what i'm exactly want.. So that if you heard this, how you will think.. They sale me my future, it's a business, yea i'm agreed this is a business, but what made me confused is the sales income way.. What they sale is jio a partner come in, buy product and be partnership again, so that they have bonus.. I'm did ask people they tell me is network marketing, i'm also go google search about what is network marketing, but you know i'm study not many, for my understand is network marketing is make business based on customer with internet, is it? 

I'm dont know i'm misunderstand or what la, but i'm feel sad lo, and last night they really show me a great movie, if future our situation become good, i'm hope you can share with me all about this..

Okay, 
same that,
how do you do?
Beside miss you,
now i'm understand something is,
i'm too weak because i'm see too less..
Oh ya,
take care oh,
this week weather like joke,
suka2 hot,
and then later rain heavy..
Take care..

Page 17,
Afternoon 12:24,
By Yht..

Your's name..

Today i'm feel shock,
used i'm write a lot emo on facebook and wechat,
but i'm din't expect your name,
will come out from my sister..
She ask me,
your friend,
named Sara (i'm correct her is Sarah)
is your lover or who else?
Did i'm write everything because of you,
i'm never expect she know your name,
and i'm never tell her about you,
this is first time your name come out from her mouth..
But this is not a big problem,
problem is she ask me,
you playing my feeling,
gosh,
how could she think you like this,
of course i'm defend for you..
Hehe =)

Oh yea, here is the topic.. "Money game", heard before? I'm guess you know this very well? Kind of business or something.. I'm not sure, but i'm almost let people tipu join it, so fool horh your sei lord, is like that lorh, without two bully, he just is a sei zai.. But it's time he need to grow up, just like what Nobita did, when Doraemon is gone..

Page 16,
Midnight 00:32,
By Yht..

Accept it..

When i'm change place to write this,
i guess i'm ready to accept the truth of,
you will never found this place..
But i'm wrong,
i'm feel bad again,
After the day you never came here anymore,
and you maybe will think i'm do the right thing,
already to let go everything about you,
but the truth is hidding something from you..
I'm hidding something to you..
You know that?

I know for now is no one will caring of me, and i'm do everything alone.. I'm don't know how to do and what to do so.. Remember that i'm try to find someone to replace you..? Even now i'm trying to, but i'm do it again, and i'm feel hurt again when i'm tell people i'm did have feel to them.. Sigh, how can you will know, and i'm keep say something meanless..

First of the April,
also known as April fool,
i'm miss you just like all the time again..

Page 15,
Morning 07:23,
By Yht..