Racist..

Racist, this word is appear since long time ago, what happen of today on Malaysia, i do feel uncomfort and sadness, human keep saying they are better, greater than last time, but they forever can't get clear actually they are no much different that older time..

What we always talking about anything happen just hand to the laws, laws is the defence of a country, but what happen of today, is human beyond on laws, human fight with their fist, human hurt each other with the same thing we use to make friend, HAND..

Why..? Why human is no much different than animals when they saw something look different with them, they will hurt the another life when they think that is not own kind.. Or we are more worst than animals..? Animals hurt other kind just because they need food supply, and we do hurt people just because we need took something from people and not because we need that to supply our life keep move on..? What actually human is..? Devil, Demon..? 

We been tell, teach since we are children, we do respect people, we can't hurt people, but when we are grow, what we do is exacty different with what we learn, we hated, hurting different kind people, we do not respect people when we saw another colour of people, we think people are cheap and low grade than our kind.. 

Since im grow, got a question im was hate to answer, that is "You chinese/malay/indian..?", what im reply to people is, im chinese, from Malaysia, but im prefer you call me, Malaysian.. Because from my heart deeply part, im do understand, we are human, no matter what colour of our skin, we all is same, we got same colour of blood, bone and even with our organ is same.. We do live on earth, we do breathing with oxygen.. Why, we must hurt other just because we are not same colour of skin, WHY!? 

Dummy, im feel sad of Malaysia, i feel unhappy to saw what people did on LowYat, i do hate i dont have the power to change people mind, i do hate i dont have a ability to help people understanding we are human, we are same.. I feel sad, i finally understand what mean of "How sad you are, if you know that you got the ideology but you dont have those power to do it", dummy, is that is neutral of humanity..? What kind of this highly intelligent life if that is really what human is.. Sigh, night dumb2, night..

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Ever.. Never..

I dont know how to start this page.. Even in my heart there is very much thing hope to share with you but when im trying to write it all, i just know actually im dont know how and where should i begin..

Many thing is happen, let me feel tired and very down.. Even make me feel hopeless, helpless and meanless.. People will keep thinking something more when they are helpless, include me, i am a human too, right..?

Athough there is many happen, let me feel the life of human is weak, is tiny, and is funny.. No matter how strong we pretend and actually we just is great acting.. I dont know how long this bad mood im will holding, all i know is just write down for let you know, im actually understand you are here, for listen my "cheong hei" speech..

Thank you, and Good night, sweet dream with missing you..

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