My current feel.. 2015 April..

Malaysia, i love this country, is my homeland.. But living here is very hard, many of my relatives are moving to nearly country just because there are giving more income.. Sometimes i'm feel hopeless on this country, hopeless for my generation, my future even my life.. Just i'm haven lost hope from my ability..

What is luckily for me is, even if i'm unhappy, upset i can still blam everything at here, at least you will know a fella still alive.. Sometimes i'm thinking what if you are unhappy, just because my selfish cause you lost a tree hole to complain your bad mood.. I'm "dui hmm ju"..

Don't know what happen, i feeling this year are moving quite fast, already May, few more month will be you this dummy birthday.. =) Semakin old we are huh.. The passed few days i'm will think about you sometimes, maybe there is because you're the VIP for me, hope you still happy and dumb larh..

Okay larh, there is, if you really still need a shoulder or a tree hole, i guess you can text me =| if you dare.. Hahahaha, ok lurh, take care yea.. Remember the healthy is your treasure..

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Afternoon 14:13,

By Yht..

what is human be..?

Sometimes, you though u're been trained very tough, actually you just success to keep the weak on the deep, i can even lie to myself i'm already unbreakable, but there is just a lie..

When you feel weak, but there is no one to share, there is a terrible bad feeling.. I can't find someone i can tell everything without any hide.. All i can do is only keep lie to myself and act to be strong.. Why people can't share something without sharing with mind..

I'm watch something, a word let me remind how funny we was last time, banana.. You always ask me to do something you can't read or can't find in chinese, and i'm need you be my dictionary book.. Already 10years ago..

If life was short, why i'm still has to care, but i'm still care.. I'm afraid the future, i don't know what will i become, the country we stay are falling, and what i can do is nothing.. Nothing more.. 

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10:45a.m.
By Yht..